Hiya lovelies, I hope you all had a fab weekend. We had a rather chilled out one which was very much needed. My anxiety has been flaring up quite badly over the past few weeks so some down time was definitely welcomed. I thought I would pop up a little blog update post as I know up until recently I haven’t really been that active on here or on my socials really. I started up My Little Brushneen Blog over 2 years ago now! My first post was publised on the 9th of May 2017! I can’t quite believe how quickly that time has flown by. I had a quick scroll back through the posts and seeing how much little monkey has grown during that time is incredible. On here I share the ups and downs, struggles and triumphs, the smiles, the tears, adventures and day to day and I’m so glad I found the confidence from somewhere to share my little blog. After our miscarriage earlier this year I had to take a step back though and my return to writing was delayed. The longer I took the harder it became to find the motivation or the desire to post anything. I was unsure if I would share the news on here but I just didn’t feel like I could come back and start doing reviews or write about anything else without acknowledging what had happened. For me the need to talk about it was strong yet at the same time I just didn’t know how to approach it or how to start that post.
To be truthful I did doubt If I would return to blogging at all but getting back to it has definitely been a positive step. The support I’ve received has been amazing and truly I am so very grateful for all the lovely comments and thoughtful messages. Those kind words really do mean so much.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about what direction I want to take my blog in and considering going self hosted. I need to do a bit more research into it and truth be told I’m a little bit anxious about the change but i’m sure it’ll work out fine. I’ve got a few other things in the pipeline as well and I am excited to get working on that.
I feel as though I’ve rediscovered my love for writing.
It’s no secret now that I have been struggling and feeling a little lost, so drained and distant. I’ve always found writing to be therapeutic. Growing up I used to keep journals and especially during the rougher times with my anxiety found it be very helpful. It’s like a way of releasing or easing the anxieties, thoughts, feelings and worries and instead of keeping it bottled up getting it down on paper (or typed onto a screen).
My blog gives me something to focus on, allows me to be more open and has given me a platform to express my feelings, I do find it difficult to talk but it is starting to give me more confidence in approaching those difficult conversations. It’s allowed me to share my story and hopefully by doing so it may show others going through similar experiences that there is no shame in finding things difficult and it is ok to ask for help. If it helped even just one other to see that they are not alone then it’s worth it.
It may have started off as a hobby, but it has become so much more to me.