Hiya lovelies, I hope you all had a fab weekend. We had a rather chilled out one which was very much needed. My anxiety has been flaring up quite badly over the past few weeks so some down time was definitely welcomed. I thought I would pop up a little blog update post as I know up until recently I haven’t really been that active on here or on my socials really. I started up My Little Brushneen Blog over 2 years ago now! My first post was publised on the 9th of May 2017! I can’t quite believe how quickly that time has flown by. I had a quick scroll back through the posts and seeing how much little monkey has grown during that time is incredible. On here I share the ups and downs, struggles and triumphs, the smiles, the tears, adventures and day to day and I’m so glad I found the confidence from somewhere to share my little blog. After our miscarriage earlier this year I had to take a step back though and my return to writing was delayed. The longer I took the harder it became to find the motivation or the desire to post anything. I was unsure if I would share the news on here but I just didn’t feel like I could come back and start doing reviews or write about anything else without acknowledging what had happened. For me the need to talk about it was strong yet at the same time I just didn’t know how to approach it or how to start that post.
Some days it will be tougher to put on a brave face, some days will be hard, right now it may feel like most days are a struggle and some times stepping out of that comfort zone will be difficult. Miscarraige is draining, both physically and mentally. Devastating.
Although it may not feel like it right now Time is a great healer.
It is ok to take the time needed to heal, don’t rush. It is ok to have ups and downs, It is ok to feel sad, for tears to fall, It is ok to reach out, to ask for help, It is ok to TALK.
Don’t feel like you have to keep it hidden, miscarraige doesn’t have to be a secret. It shouldn’t be so taboo. Talking, It’s not easy and it won’t solve everything but talking, it can really help.
I’m still learning this too
I was incredibly honoured to be contacted by the lovely Caroline from Mermen for Mind, a heart warming project run in memory of Ellen Scott. The team have created a fantastic Charity Calender to support Mind the mental health charity and In this post I will tell you more about Ellen, the Mermen for Mind Project and why it’s a cause so very close to my heart.
My history with anxiety spans over close to 15 years so it’s not unusual for me to get stuck in a rut, hit an anxious slump and go through the ‘down’ side of the many ups and downs that living with an anxiety disorder brings, I get through it and pick myself back up again, but at the moment this slump feels never ending.
Lately my anxiety seems to have resurfaced and quite honestly has got me feeling a bit down in the dumps! So I’ve decided to set myself some goals for July, things that I have avoided due to this little slump I’m in, things that ultimately will help get me back on track, things that help ease the stress and worry that comes with the anxiety and that I know I’ll feel very positive about achieving!
I feel I’ve taken a step back with my Anxiety lately, or 1 step forward 10 steps back! If you’ve read my Mental health awareness post (I’ll link it at the bottom) you’ll know I do have a bit of a history with anxiety and panic attacks and was diagnosed with G.A.D (Generalised Anxiety Disordor) in my late teens. It does fluctuate, highs, lows, ups and downs, good days and bad days, sometimes I can go months without it affecting me and then bam!! It hits me right in the face and once again becomes a daily struggle!
Mental Health Awareness
This is a tough one, Although I really want to post this, I’ve put off writing it for days simply because I just don’t know where to begin! It’s a long post but it would mean a lot to me for you to stick with it to the end!